19 November 2012

Seriously you guys I just can't even

I haven't been blogging lately. I haven't been writing anything at all lately. There are all the usual excuses about how busy I am, and how difficult it is to find time to write when one is a single mom who works full-time and all that. But tonight I decided that I need to face the fact of what I realized earlier today: I don't write because I don't want to deal with it. It's not the writing itself that I can't handle; it's the fact that there are some things that have been inside of me for a long time and need to be written and I don't want to face the thoughts and feelings that will result from processing and writing. And once I realized that, I then recognized that coming to that realization might be part of the healing process, and readiness to record thoughts and feelings might be the next step of healing.

I have a lot of healing to do, you guys.

Probably no one even checks this blog anymore, and that is fine (not just fine, but fantastic) because I can write it all here and nobody on the internet will even bother to read it. I hope I have the courage and fortitude to really write it.

1 comment:

Jennie said...

This really hit home with me, because I also recently realized I've been holding onto a lot of things that I just don't need anymore. What made me realize it was taking a writing class. There were prompts provided each day and a lot of them brought out things I didn't even think were bothering me, which was such a weird feeling.

I guess what I'm saying is, I sympathize and am in a similar place and, though I probably won't be posting any of it to my blog, I'm trying to write it out.

Take care!